Life Is Cray Cray!

Hello!

I have no idea why I have suddenly started saying ‘cray cray’, but I kind of like it, so I’m just going to roll with it!

Life is crazy hectic at the moment and it’s leaving me with hardly any time, or motivation, to blog. Which is a real shame because I blog because I love writing and sharing and being part of such an amazing community. Unfortunately, Lukeosaurus And Me is still sort of my “Internet life” in my head and “real life” has to come first.

There’s not a lot I can share at the moment and I think I also need to re-evaluate the amount of information I do share – despite leading these two “different” lives, they do seem to be clashing violently from time to time and causing me some very unwanted aggravation. All I want to do is write and have fun. Other people from “real life” don’t seem to appreciate that! So we will have to see how things progress…

Life is very busy and I am very tired! But I do have one very exciting event coming up that I am super stoked for: Luke’s 2nd Birthday!

We’re not having the party we hoped for, which has made me a bit sad. I guess I’ll have to save all my plans for next year maybe. Luke’s probably going to be happy no matter what, but I feel that horrible pressure that’s been put on me when it comes to be a separated parent – splitting the holidays. I feel it’s a bit unfair, Luke was with his dad for Easter, Mother’s Day – every holiday that happens over a weekend. He’s with his dad for Christmas too, which is the only time my family ever get together. Luke’s dad has transport, can drive and he is friends with everyone who used to be my friends. I can’t help but feel Luke is always going to have more fun, get fussed over more and create more memories when he’s with his dad than when he’s with me. So not being able to throw this party, due to funds and family life, has really upset me.

I’m in a ditch at the moment and feeling pretty low. I have a serious case of mummy guilt and I am definitely feeling like a terrible mother.

I wish I could do all the things that Luke’s dad can do for him, as well as all the things I do for him. I wish that I could give him more fun.